"Obstacles help us uncover the difference between what we truly want and what we merely think we want." but the problem im having is set aside from both of those two aspects, im not quite sure what i have, or where im headed, or whos even coming with me. I just know right now, in this state of mind ive reached my core and ive finally been broken in. I never imagined me here, lost, confused and feeling distinguished beyond control. So many questions left unanswered, that i just cant seem to find the answer to. WHY? thats the question i always find myself stuck on and i know the answer isnt in me but i cant seem to stop asking myself WHY because im the one here stuck woundering where things went wrong? && what happen to make things fall apart? WHY? WHY NOW? WHY US? As these last teardrops begin to fall, i realize that i needed a few more to fall so that i could fully understand, because in the mist of all those tears, I FINALLY GOT IT. I understand that no matter how many tears you shed, or how many times you look them in eye and say "I love you" or how many times they hear you grasping for your last breath; it doesnt change the fact that their pullying away and pushing you in the opposite direction. WHY? you still dont have the answer, so now that feeling that you been having comes rushing back. That feeling when you can be wrapped up in so much love, but yet you still feel all alone, that ISOLATED feeling. That feeling when your up all night crying and struggling to breathe, that DEHYDRATED feeling. That feeling when you start doubting yourself because all those insecurites that they help set aside is now part of that WHY? and your still STUCK!
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