Scared

YOU WiLL NEVER KNOW HOW i TRULY FEEL. i WiLL NEVER ALLOW MYSELF TO SHOW YOU MY WEAKNESSES THAT I HOLD WITHIN. TO YOU iM ALWAYS HAPPY, BUT THAT LEAVES YOU NOT KNOWING HOW MUCH YOU REALLY HURT ME, AND NO MORE I CAN INDURE. iM SCARED TO TELL YOU HOW I TRULY FILL, EVEN THOUGH IM TIRED OF WEARING THIS REPEATED DISGUISE. i WONDER iF MY FEELiNGS EVEN MATTER TO YOU. CAN YOU SEE HOW MUCH i LOVE YOU? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE? HAVE YOU EVER NOTiCED THE LOOK UPON MY FACE WHEN i AM AROUND YOU? IF i TELL YOU HOW i REALLY FEEL DO YOU PROMiSE THAT YOU WONT EVER LOOK AT ME DiFFERENT? CAN i TRUST YOU? i DONT KNOW. i FEEL SO ALONE WHEN i DON'T LET MY FRUSTRATiONS OUT. i FEEL LiKE iM CRYiNG OUT LOUD BUT NOONE HEARS ME. iTS JUST ME AND THE DARK. COULD iT BE THAT i AM SHY? OR COULD iT BE THAT i AM SCARED OF GETTiNG HURT ALL OVER AGAIN? SOMETiMES i FEEL LiKE YOU'RE THERE BUT WHEN i TALK YOU NEVER HEAR ME. ARE YOU LISTENING? iM SCARED OF KNOWiNG iF YOU'RE HAPPY WiTH ME. i JUST WANT TO GiVE YOU THE BEST BECAUSE YOU DESERVE iT. BUT iM SO SCARED i DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO iT. PLEASE FORGiVE ME FOR BEiN SCARED..JUST KNOW THAT ONE DAY i WiLL NO LONGER HAVE TO HiDE iN THE DARK AND YOU WiLL THEN KNOW HOW i REALLY FEEL